Day 5 - Oral Releana - 164.4 pounds - I blew it at night! So upset!

Weight: 164.4


Day 5 and I am only at 164.4 pounds : - (.
I am disappointed because when I started this program, before gouging on food, I weighed 161.
I know its only 3 pounds away from where I started but I just wish I did not put on all those pounds in two days.
I was expecting to weight 156 by now.
Bummers!

Today is the Birthday of a very close friend of mine (BB) and he wants to go out to dinner to celebrate!
Oh no!
Now how do I handle this?

I think what I am going to do is not eat all day and then at dinner I will have all the food.
Except this morning I am going to have an apple with my potassium pill.

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Well I blew it!
I only had 2 apples during the day so I could eat at a birthday dinner.

So at The Chart House I tried to be good but just could not!
I had
10oz Filet Mignon - grilled only
10 Asparaguses - gilled only
2 pieces of bread
3 sips of red wine
5 bites of Ice Cream cake
Ahi Tuna Appetizer - 5 pieces

My weight is going to be off the charts tomorrow. : - (

I think I am upset with what happened this last weekend. SAD
Just a lot of Loss AGAIN for me.
I lost a girlfriend that I've known for 10 years.
I have been involved with a pageant with her and was a volunteer and helped out.
However she blatantly fixed this years pageant and intentionally dissed a contestant that I was coaching from making the top 5.
She would have won the pageant but instead she let someone else win because she paid her money.
I consider it to be a Slap In The Face not only to me but to the other contestants.
A message board went up and all the complaints about the pageant was unbelievable and people are just sick of this woman manipulating her pageants.

So I am angry, frustrated and now my relationship that I had cherished so much is over and I feel a tremendous loss.
I have a job and because I am so upset and consumed with all the drama I have not been able to work and slacked off at my job not doing anything.

On a good note....
I do have a job coming up where I am going to be working for a company that is launching a new skin care. So that is why I want to get the weight off and quickly.

I did not take my Releana at night I forgot.
I am falling apart!